the Cool (part 2)

So out of adherence and admonishment
Passed down from the Father
I strengthened my heart
And trained my mouth to follow.

The after works of the Disciples
Paul and peter to be exact
Finishing the book of Acts
And becoming disciplined and apt.

It's all too familiar - when i recollect and think back
Of the passages and sermons I listened to, but didn't pack
Any words of wisdom and courage and patience and obedience
Characteristics of a disciple - but portraying to be a comedian.

Comical because in the spot-light
I tried my derndess to convey righteous activity
But in the trials and tests I needed to pass
I proved only to be in captivity.

Never too much heartfelt training
Yet trying really hard to be His best
Condoning my conception of love
Leading to a spiritual cardiac arrest

No understanding of who I am
Where I was
Or what I'm called to be
Being fermented and scrubbed to showmanship
To ultimately preach - the breach of my normal brain tones
Soiled with slave moans
And degradation of the fruits of the spirit
No pain - No gain - No more.

But you said recently to stop crying
Stop flying - Stop denying
Stop false claiming supplying
Stop contemptuously underlying
STOP TRYING!

Now is the training process that will never cease to diminish or end
Training me - in the here and now on how to be a winner again.

And so from the admonishment
In reality 'iman adherent
I'm blessed by the favor
I 'HAVE' been given clearance.

To be a student to the heavenly Rabbi
Who gave His life for misfits
Since He died for you
Why not live for Him?

And recite His words with no difference
That's why a disciple is trained - in the scholarly Orthodox Doctrinal Traditions
So we can become disciplined through Christ
With the discernment of what to raise kids in.

.No Doubt.
2007-2009