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Monday, February 9, 2015

The Enemy in the Mirror

The Enemy in the Mirror

Some days I hate you.
Most days I can’t stand you.
My only competition in this race called life,
And all my efforts are to sedate you.
Frustrate you
Make you unhinged
Beat you at mind games
Play and toy with your emotions
As I pull and tug your chains.
Attempting to make you go insane
And self-destruct
Running amok
Dangling a carrot in front of your face
Only promising success to you by luck.
As I tempt you and trick you
Lie to you and hide from you
While I circumvent your every persuasion
Causing your constant hesitation.
Your constant bouts with trepidation
Can only lead to one explanation
That your wounds are the fruition
Of another man’s premeditation.

So I’ll boast high and wide
That my trophy will suffice
Even though it foreshadows the man whose winnings
May turn to demise.
Even though we collide
I take pride in beating this guy
The biggest loser of all time
And my most favorite of goodbyes.
The itch I can’t wait to scratch
The birth place or hatch
Of my most diabolic schemes and plots
Aimed at the brim of his hat.

But how long must I dis-join my body’s different members
To strike this opponent
Leaving him under my surrender?
He doesn't even fight me back
Not a single swing or punch
I've tried making him cough up
His yesterday’s lunch.
But he doesn't even buy it
All the while I feel his cold hard stare
As I attempt to thrust him in the air
And send him air borne
Crashing to the concrete
Helpless in defeat
I even try to rub dirt in his face
As gravel crackles under my feet.
Vibrant am I
Never discreet
As I raise my hands in victory
Only to be standing over a man

That will always look like me.

The Biggest Loser







Dictionary.com defines the term 'competition' as: the act of competing; rivalry for supremacy, or a prize, etc.; also a contest for some prize to win, honor, or advantage; the rivalry offered by a competitor.


So much of our lives today get marked, motivated, lead and influenced by to aspect of competition - whether it’s in the ring of academics, athletics, politics, business, social status, popular culture, military advancements, technology, work environments, religion and pretty much every other aspect of Western Civilization.
The truth is that because being competitive is so embedded in our society and our perspectives, no matter what situation we could possibly be in, at any given time, the need to have a winner or a loser, to some degree, is always understood, hoped for and pushed to ultimately attain.
What do you gain by you actually 'winning' in anything?
Whether it’s winning an argument with somebody, or being better than another person at something or smarter than them because you remembered something that they couldn't recall when the call to respond on a topic presented itself.
What is it all for?
Clout? Respect? Bragging rights? Keeping the ‘weaker’ person emotionally depended on you? Manipulation for personal gain of influence?
Isn't the core of winning based upon your ability to be able to perform at the given time of the contest?
Kinda sounds like the sports industry huh - or really everywhere you could choose to look, because frankly, we can’t escape the need to compete even if we wanted to.

The amazing thing about the Gospel message that Jesus preached over 2,000 years is that, He says that in God's eyes, because we've looked to ourselves, and our abilities and our knowledge to succeed, prosper or 'win' in this life apart from God being the source of our accomplishments, we've actually lost everything that we could have possibly held on to qualify ourselves, through ourselves, to be ‘winning’ or to be a success.
Literally, we are the biggest loser.
When you look throughout history, how many civilizations have attempted to get ahead or to advance or to grow their empires or establish their footprint in known history, only to eventually fail and to have a legacy that always has ended in defeat, shame or even total surrender and apparent loss in some cases?

I can’t name or find one that has passed into the ‘winning circle’.

See that’s the beauty of the Gospel, our sin, though it has lead us astray as we live in enmity with God, has been championed by Jesus who has restored us back into right relationship with God by giving Himself for our sin.

So what does completion specifically have to do with the Gospel?
Because the way in which we compete and use competition causes us to live as if we don’t need God, and if we even do, it’s always on a conditional basis.
The bible tells us that in our weakness, we are made strong in the Lord and in the power of His might; so if my dealings in any relationship that I may have are coming from a place of being better than, smarter than, faster than, wiser than, holier than anyone else, I have now moved away from a position of total reliance on God and into the realm of doing things for myself by myself.
Literally for us, every day that we aren’t reading His word, submitting our thoughts to Him in prayer, seeking His direction for the course of our lives and asking Him to intervene for us in the situations we face, we are making ourselves available for complete and total failure.
If we’ve historically lost because of thinking that we don’t need Him to live, what makes us think that it will magically be different for us now?

By nature we compete to win but it’s always at someone else’s expense and sadly this is the way that competition works.
It’s impossible to win without someone else being at some form of an expense to be your second best, runner up or just plain not good enough to finish first.

The Gospel doesn’t even the playing field with losers and winners in this life; the Gospel streamlines man’s (mankind’s) ambitions to live and shows him (us) that our aspirations apart from God, will take us beyond getting over on other people and lead us into being separated from God because we allow ourselves to be taken over by our said passions and desires. God wants all of us, even the side of us that wants to defeat foes and fight enemies and attain personal gains because of it. He wants that side of us too, because that side is the very thing that will cause us to lose everything that we call ourselves working for.

·         Some women lose their husbands in marriage because of the unwillingness to submit to the natural order that God has designed for marriage. They want to compete for individuality, emotional control and consent and out of fear that a man could actually do what God has called him to do; without realizing that their selfishness is the very thing that’s truly keeping them away from being an individual in the first place.
·         Some men lose their wives in marriage because they feel the need to conquer their spouse and to compete with the inconsistent and often times unorthodox demands that her emotions need from time to time by forcing her to steer every feeling she has, without loving and understanding what her need really is and providing that for her.
·         Some people compete with themselves so much so that there is no room for error and they fight internally to constrict and bound themselves up, from themselves, at any given time for any given reason. You see this in religion all of the time. Where a person is so devout that they will mutilate themselves in more ways than one so that they can have mastery over themselves.

The thing is that the list really goes on but I pray that you really grasp the concept I’m showing you today, and that’s this:

Competition has, can, and will with no resolute or conformity, take your living self away from you and dare you to try and take it back.

Don’t live in competition with anybody, including you.
The road is so lonely, that after you achieve everything you set yourself after, you’ll now spend the rest of your life trying to scramble together the pieces of a broken life while you try to figure out how you could have possibly lost everything though you’ve attained everything.

Having everything and yet possessing nothing.

That’s the harsh reality of letting competition fuel your life.
I challenge you to allow God to be your Vindicator, your Ambassador, your Beneficiary, your Confidant, your Captain, your Truth, your Source, your Supply and most importantly, your Motivation.

Doing this is as easy as asking Him to forgive you for letting your life turn in opposition to His guidance, because I feel that if you’re honest enough with yourself, you’ll recognize that God has been trying to get ahold of you for quite some time now.
The bible says not to harden your heart, but to literally allow Him to speak to you and to let His word judge your heart so that you could be free from condemnation and alive to live and move and have your total being in Him.

That’s the beauty of all of this! His word is not attempting to separate you, hurt you or condemn you! His word is there so that we could have a road map to lead us back to His presence when we go astray. It’s also there to give us a play by play text of how we are to live out our lives now that we’ve given up on competition.

Literally I mean that God has developed a way to replace the life we used to live so that we could remain free from the things that so easily entangles us and traps us, keeping us away from a relationship with Him.

Don’t just take my word for anything, I encourage you to go and hit the texts in scripture and see if I’m right about what His word says concerning what it takes to really be a winner in this life and then judge yourself where you’re at, in honesty, and really answer the question:

Who am I, and Why am I here?



Marcus C. Hollinger