I've Closed Down My Heart For Repairs

(annouce title) - because the part that was initially there has been taken to utter despair
I'm grippin' my sheets
every week
and i can't sleep
my knees are weak
my eyes leak
'cause I'm a type of a lost sheep..

Every conversation opens a void that i can't seem to close
Cause i really wanna talk to you, but I'm constantly opposed
I'm froze, locked up, as a POW-U, yeah you heard what i said
I'm walking around as a prisoner of words unsaid
Words slurred, un-dead, walking and living - seemingly - but only existing
Empty and grimacing
My cellophane's my nice smile
But my pain runs deeper than Shyne's release files
I'm locked up in a straight jacket of offenses and grim intent
So acknowledge this..
I'm absolutely Done Everyday, Affirmed in Detriment
Check the Doppler-Radar, my hearts Yelling through a fence
I'm defeated and depleted
Convinced for your opinion once, but i no longer need it
'Cause you won't give me your time anymore
Conniving Conceited...

So I'm done wasting words
Ive shut the door to my heart
Melted the key in an exhaust
Of a running, parked car
And watched my chance to have you again
Melt away in despair
As my time with you
I see now....
Was never really there....




.f.in.
Pre-Repentance (Summer of 2011)